Wednesday, June 23, 2010

my he{art}


It has been 24 days since I lost you mom and this morning it weighs so heavy on my heart. Last night, like so many nights, I just couldn't sleep. I still have a tight feeling in my chest and a lump in my throat; it's always like I've had the wind knocked out of me and I can't catch my breath.

Everyday I try to do SOMETHING to let you know how much I love you, and miss you. I wish there was more I could do, but I am not an artist of the drawing kind, and I cannot paint a picture to show you how much you mean to me. I'm not good enough with words to write a beautiful poem or passage that could possibly describe everything you have meant and continue to mean to me (how could I possibly put into words your strength, your friendship, unconditional love, and your laughter...you always had a way to put a smile on everyone's face)...

Although I can't do any of those things, I literally wear my he{art} on my sleeve and try to show you all this by carrying little pieces of you on me everyday, like

Your oversized sweater, that still holds your smell

Your locket that you wore constantly when I was a little girl

And the sky high platforms you insisted I buy for myself because you said they were just too hot to pass up (you were always pure genius with shoes momma).



I'm putting this out there, so somewhere you can read it and when you see those little pieces you know what it means.


I love you momma,

Beans Baxter/Breanna Lynne/your daughter and friend.

24 comments:

  1. sending love. you look very pretty

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  2. How sweet and heartfelt... I'm positive she's smiling :)
    xoxo

    www.sarabbentley.blogspot.com

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  3. Ohh...I bet she will see this...Lots of love, sweetie

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  4. You look beautiful, my dear. Sending you lots of love.
    xo Josie
    http://winksmilestyle.blogspot.com

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  5. i am so so sorry for your loss. sending lots of hugs your way today and in the days to come.

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  6. what a beautiful post<3

    xo Lynzy

    http://fromskirtstoskillets.blogspot.com

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  7. I am sorry to hear about your loss. The post was wonderful and somewhere above your mom is smiling.

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  8. aweee :( Sorry chica. This was a great post to your momma! Love your outfit and shoes! hugs! xoxo

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  9. That was really sweet. I love that you're doing this for your mom. Melts my heart.

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  10. Bre, I am so sorry to hear about this! I am positive your mom is reading this and know how much you love her. Sending you a big hug. xoxo.

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  11. This broke my heart - sending some internet love your way. This was a very sweet & touching post. You look fantastic, and I love that each piece has such meaning!

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  12. amazing look
    i love your shoes
    xxx

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  13. Sending you lots of love...... the shoes are amazing... I'll be thinking good thoughts for you.....

    xxx
    CEO

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  14. This is a really beautiful tribute.

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  15. Keep your head up! Sending <3 your way!!!

    xoxo
    Alicia

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  16. I'm so sorry to hear about your Mom, it is always so hard to say goodbye to people that we love. A very touching post, Bre. I have to say - what great style she had - cute jumper, and I love that yellow dress, very cool and it looks really gorgeous on you :)

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  17. Thinking of you, Bre. Give me a call if you need to chat. Love ya, mean it.

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  18. this is beautiful.
    and a lovely way to keep someone close.
    lots of love and prayers your way.

    and i have no doubts--your mom is looking down and still thinking your shoes are hot!

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  19. Thanks for sharing this special post/letter. I don't know this type of loss, but pray you will find comfort in knowing you are a beautiful reflection of your mom and she lives on through your life. What a great legacy!

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  20. very sorry to hear about your loss. you're very brave. that sweater is also gorgeous.

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  21. Bre, I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. lots of prayers and love is sent your way.
    This outfit looks stunning on you

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  22. :( very sad to hear Bre. sending you hugs

    Kate

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